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Got my Covid-19 vaccination!

A month plus ago, my company sent out a broadcast e-mail (I assumed to not all, but by batch) that we all can pre-register for Moderna vaccine. I got my slot on 4th May (1st dose) and 4th June 2021 (2nd dose).

For my first dose, it was in the month of Ramadan. So I did not consume anything (since I was fasting) but I was jolly majorly well prepared. My fiancé was supposed to accompany me but told him to cancel his leave because “Ohh I will be taking the company bus”.

Once I got my jab, I waited in the observation room for like around 30min. My experience?
dizzy
difficulty in breathing
fever
giddy

That’s normal. That is totally normal. Totally normal to the point I fell asleep in the train and almost missed my station.

Next day, I felt a bit restless and yes, still had my fever.

pejam celik pejam celik… I received an e-mail saying the second dose will be held at the main centre (my office). Glad, happy because I just can’t bear to be a pillion all the way to Lakeside.

Got my jab around 3.15pm on Friday 4th June. I did not feel any side effect when I was in the observation room so fiancé and I off to Vivo to shop for food! Then… I started to feel uneasy.
nausea
fatigue
fever
chill
headache
vomit

Mind you… second dose effects kick in differently for each individual. I was quite unlucky to vomit 9 TIMES in 3 freaking days!

I called UCC and asked what should I do if the side effect is persistent? They told me to come down to for check-up and sadly, I stayed there for hours because my giddiness made me feel imbalance.

They had to put in drip for me because I kept saying “feels my head is like spinning”. Doctor came in told me the side effect kinda made me have vertigo. The thing is… I do not have stroke, diabetes, kidney problem or whatsoever. It is just probably the side effect of the 2nd dose because different people will have different reaction towards it.

Mine… happened to be vomiting.

Now… my ears ringing are and balance movements all are fine. Physically, I am okay, but ya lah what to do kan…

I got Moderna Covid-19 vaccine and this vaccine has mRNA and it is 94.1% effective. I am not saying this will cure Covid-19 but it is a prevention. Better be safe than sorry, right?

I urge everyone to register and get vaccinated as soon as possible. Not only you are saving yourself, but you are saving others from getting affected. You are saving the world too.

Blogging · Personal

What’s new?

It has been almost 18 months since I WFH. I should have gotten myself a big work desk.

What are my thoughts about WFH? Well… kinda save my transportation & food money. I don’t really have to fork out on that now but at the same time… it is kinda stressful. I mean… if I had a bigger house and my own room, I don’t mind staying in the house for 24/7.

I need a space for myself. A space where I can work and study within my own limits.

And apparently, Clubhouse kinda cheered me up. Got to know new people, made new friends but some can be shitty.

I am still in Clubhouse, but not as active as before.

I am still searching for a new job. Wait… I guess gotta wait till I am married then baru carilah kan?

For months, I have doubts in myself – whether or not I should do a switch career.

That’s about it.

Blogging · Personal

Coming to an end

The last time I went to JB was January 26. And the last place I visited was Chengdu. And little do we know, 2020 is about to come to an end.

What have I achieved so far?
– I have lost 5kg ever since WFH
– I got engaged exactly 2 years after
– I’ve been accepted by an institute to continue my study (more like… switching career)
– I have forgiven people who have backstabbed me but will never forget what they have done
– Slowly donning hijab

What am I looking forward in 2021?

I don’t know… It is hard to predict the future, right? But InsyaAllah, I will try my best to save more money as I only have a year more to plan for my next big day.

I only want a simple nikah and wedding ceremony.

Ever since I have gone back to school, most of the time I am occupied at home doing reading and spend more time with my little nephew. Oh forgot to mention! My nephew was born three days after my engagement ceremony. He’s probably too excited to come out early. He will turn 5 months on December 14.

Let’s hope 2021 will be a better year. Let us hope every country has found its vaccine. Let us hope for the best. Always believe in God’s work. He knows better than us.

Till then,
much love 💜

Blogging · Personal

My hijrah journey

I was lost in a deserted area with my mom. I told her that I want to change, and I want to don hijab. I would like to learn more about my religion. But then something happened.

I couldn’t find dad and my brother. In fact, there were only little kids and women (mothers and old women), running around – some were asking for help and young girls were trying to find men, in whatsoever ways to earn some cash.

I saw an Imam and approached him. Asked him, where did all the men go? I was in disbelief when he told me most men have gone to war. Again, I asked “What war?

“The end is here.” I stood in silent. I told Imam I’d like to seek forgiveness, I want to repent.

Felt like we were back in neolithic era. No smartphones, no tv. Not even a bloody car. I didn’t know how to contact my dad. I stopped a lady from running and asked why is it almost all young girls are doing prostitution, gambling & etc?

“What is there to lose? Everyone is going to hell anyway. Might as well sin.”

And I heard sangkakala…

I woke up with tears, rolling on my cheeks. I looked around my bed, finding my phone.

Every single day I sujud and pray to Allah, asking for forgiveness and each time I pray, I ask for a sign, a hidayah for me to open up and hijrah to be a better muslimah.

My heart felt a little bit heavy at first. I mean, what if I couldn’t find any acting job anymore because I’ve donned hijab? What if my then boyfriend decided to leave me? What will society think about me?

Few weeks before my engagement, on our way out to find rings, I told him about my dream. I asked for his opinion bout me donning hijab. “If you’re not ready, then don’t force yourself. But, learn. Slowly. And you’ll adapt to it.”

I wasn’t quite sure either if it was a good idea to just don on my engagement day. True what my friends say “do it slowly.

Though there are times I feel like giving up, today marks one month of me donning hijab. I mean, up till now I question myself about the dream, “Is that the sign from God? Or is it just another bad dream?”

But that dream changed my life. Change the way I pray, the way I see rizq and everything. That dream somehow has shifted me to be a better person. InsyaAllah, I am learning to be a better muslimah too. Not to mention, my heart is at ease, to know Allah hears my prayers, hears me, even in sleep.

وَقُل لِّلْمُؤْمِنَاتِ يَغْضُضْنَ مِنْ أَبْصَارِهِنَّ وَيَحْفَظْنَ فُرُوجَهُنَّ وَلَا يُبْدِينَ زِينَتَهُنَّ إِلَّا مَا ظَهَرَ مِنْهَا ۖ وَلْيَضْرِبْنَ بِخُمُرِهِنَّ عَلَىٰ جُيُوبِهِنَّ ۖ وَلَا يُبْدِينَ زِينَتَهُنَّ إِلَّا لِبُعُولَتِهِنَّ أَوْ آبَائِهِنَّ أَوْ آبَاءِ بُعُولَتِهِنَّ أَوْ أَبْنَائِهِنَّ أَوْ أَبْنَاءِ بُعُولَتِهِنَّ أَوْ إِخْوَانِهِنَّ أَوْ بَنِي إِخْوَانِهِنَّ أَوْ بَنِي أَخَوَاتِهِنَّ أَوْ نِسَائِهِنَّ أَوْ مَا مَلَكَتْ أَيْمَانُهُنَّ أَوِ التَّابِعِينَ غَيْرِ أُولِي الْإِرْبَةِ مِنَ الرِّجَالِ أَوِ الطِّفْلِ الَّذِينَ لَمْ يَظْهَرُوا عَلَىٰ عَوْرَاتِ النِّسَاءِ ۖ وَلَا يَضْرِبْنَ بِأَرْجُلِهِنَّ لِيُعْلَمَ مَا يُخْفِينَ مِن زِينَتِهِنَّ ۚ وَتُوبُوا إِلَى اللَّهِ جَمِيعًا أَيُّهَ الْمُؤْمِنُونَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُفْلِحُونَ – 24:31

And tell the believing women to reduce [some] of their vision and guard their private parts and not expose their adornment except that which [necessarily] appears thereof and to wrap [a portion of] their headcovers over their chests and not expose their adornment except to their husbands, their fathers, their husbands’ fathers, their sons, their husbands’ sons, their brothers, their brothers’ sons, their sisters’ sons, their women, that which their right hands possess, or those male attendants having no physical desire, or children who are not yet aware of the private aspects of women. And let them not stamp their feet to make known what they conceal of their adornment. And turn to Allah in repentance, all of you, O believers, that you might succeed. [An Nur: 24-31]

Blogging · Personal

Betrothal: 11072020

Two years ago, someone decided to make me his girlfriend, without even asking “Do you want to be my girlfriend?“. I guess he is too old for that.

And today, we are engaged. Who knew, this day would come.

I asked for no event, no gifts. We are still in pandemic, so better be safe than sorry. Also… I have too many bags now 😛

Alhamdulillah, (rezeki) my colleague and his wife sent a box of lompat tikam, one of my favorite Malay desserts and future mother-in-law gave marble cake and grazing platter.

I am all over the moon. No words could describe how happy I am right now. Allah somehow has answered my prayer when I was at Jabal Rahmah (Mount of Mercy) 3 years ago. Allah Maha Besar, Maha Mengetahui.

I will strive to be a better Muslimah, less cengeng (cry baby) and help my family in whatever I can at the moment.

And… I am a barista now! Part-time je lah. Cari duit kahwin katakan.

Baking · Cooking · Food · homemade

3-ingredient lazy doughnuts

Hello assalamualaikum everyone! I am not sure what’ve got into me recently. Probably I am out of ideas on what to cook or bake since we all are going through a bloody circuit breaker. And Ramadan is ending soon (so sad but we will meet again next year, insyaAllah).

I made lazy doughnuts today.

Why do I call these mini doughnuts lazy doughnuts? Cause I only use three ingredients! And I’m not using any yeast so I don’t have to wait for hours, waiting for the dough to rise *inserts laughing emoji*.

INGREDIENTS
1 cup of raising flour
1 cup of plain yoghurt (not 1 cup full, like 80% of it) (alternately, you can use soy yoghurt)
1tbsp of baking powder (can use baking soda too)

METHODS
1. Mix all ingredients into one bowl. Mix gradually by using a spatula. Your dough will be quite sticky so if you’re not comfortable with it, don’t use hands.
2. Replace dough into a piping pipe. Give a small cut on the edge.
3. Add in some oil in the saute pan, medium heat. Once the oil is hot, squeeze the dough in the piping pipe and cut it into small pieces or circle.
4. Once the doughnuts have changed color to golden brown (below), toss out and let it cool for an hour before you pour your glaze.

Now… for the sugar glaze, I only use 5tbsp of cane sugar and 4tbsp of water.

On a skillet, put both ingredients and simmer slowly with low heat. This will take time. At first the sugar + water will look kinda watery but as you continue simmering, it will become thicker and the sugar will start to boil too. At this point, turn off the heat, toss in your doughnuts and coat the doughnuts until the sugar has dry. Like this (below photo).

You can also coat your doughnuts with melted chocolate or buttered color rice too. I had mine with sugar glaze and kaya jam.

Simple and easy right? Hope you enjoy and try it out at home with your kids!

Asian Food · Cooking · Dessert · homemade

Spicy Crunchy Cornflakes

Hi assalamualaikum everyone!

Initially I wanted to bake cornflakes cookies but I couldn’t find any flour around my area. Even online grocery sites are out of stock too. I ended up making spicy crunchy cornflakes or in Malay, we call it kudapan cornflakes. Some might call it cornflakes bercili (cili is chili).

Remark!

I don’t really measure my ingredients when I cook. I agak-agak (estimate).

INGREDIENTS
1 box of cornflakes (i used medium size, 250g)
curry leaves (the more the better)
6-7tsp curry powder (you can use either chicken or fish curry powder. i use baba’s chicken curry powder)
1tbsp of sugar
1/2 tsp of salt
roasted peanut (optional)
sliced garlics (optional)
6-8 dried chilies (cut slanting)
olive oil (or any type of oil)

METHODS
1. Put 2tbsp of oil into your hot wok and fry your cornflakes batch by batch (this step is to make sure your cornflakes be extra crunchy & crispy). Fry for about a minute for each batch and put aside.
2. Fry the sliced garlics, dried chilies and curry leaves together, medium heat. Once fried, put aside.
3. Sangai (a method of cooking whereby spices are fried without using oil) curry powder, sugar and salt at the same time in a very low heat. Once the color changes, add in cornflakes, curry leaves, dried chilies and sliced garlic.
4. Turn off the stove, and let it cool at a bowl.

This is my spicy crunchy cornflakes, approved by my aunt, sister-in-law and dad. Hope you guys try it at home!

Baking · Dessert · Food · homemade

Easy recipe – Apple cinnamon cake

Assalamualaikum everyone! As you know today is Mother’s Day and of course as a child, you would want to shower your mom with unconditional love and gift her a bouquet of flowers, or chocolates or perhaps a Pandora bangle & etc. And since we are under quarantine aka circuit breaker, all confectionery stores are closed until further notice.

Even Starbucks and Coffee Bean are not selling cakes at the moment. I thought of getting a bag for mom (i always shop at shopbop.com) but I don’t wanna go through the risk of waiting and then my moods go off (pandemic moment, so oversea shipping might be delayed).

So I baked her a cake – apple cinnamon cake.

Now here’s the thing – my initial plan was to bake orange cake but I couldn’t get all ingredients at two different supermarkets. Baking needs and ware are out of stock (literally everywhere around my area). And since I have leftover stocks of wheat flour, why not improvise a little bit. I used whatever ingredients I have at home.

INGREDIENTS
250g (2 3/4 cups) wheat flour – sieved/sifted
1 cup of castor sugar
3/4 cup of unsalted butter (softened)
2 large eggs (3 eggs if you use small eggs)
a pinch of salt
1 tsp of ground cinnamon
1tsp of vanilla extract
2 tsp of baking powder
1 cup of plain yoghurt (i used organic yoghurt)
3 cherry apples

METHODS
1. Peel one apple and chop into small pieces (not too small, in cube). The remaining two apples, cut them into thin slices (throw the core away & do not peel the skin). To prevent your apple from turning brow, dip into lemon juice or soak in salt water.
2. Beat butter and sugar until fluffy. Then, add egg one by one and vanilla extract. Continue beating.
3. Add in flour, salt, baking powder and ground cinnamon. Stir well.
4. Slowly add in chopped apple and yoghurt. Give them a good stir.
5. Preheat oven for 10 minutes, 170 degree celsius.
6. Place baking sheet on your tray (i used 7″ square tray) and grease it with a little bit of olive oil.
7. Pour the mixture in the tray and be sure the top is level. Then, arrange the slices apple on top and sprinkle the remaining ground cinnamon and castor sugar (mix them well) on top of the apple slices.
8. Bake for 50 minutes or least 45 minutes. Use a skewer to check if the cake is already bake. If it’s cleaned, you may take your cake out.
9. Let the cake cool down before cutting or transfer it on your cake rack.

Asian Food · Cooking · Dessert · homemade

Youtiao/Cakoi recipe

I recently made youtiao (we call it cakoi in Malay) and I swear… the hardest part (for me) is waiting for the yeast to expand. You have to get the accurate lukewarm water. No more, no less. Or else you will kill the yeast.

I had to redo four times in order to get it right.

Almost there! Anyway, here’s the recipe to make simple and easy youtiao.

INGREDIENTS
2 cups of wheat flour
1tsp of yeast
1 1/2 tbsp of olive/canola oil
2 tbsp of sugar (i use cane sugar)
1/2 tsp salt
3/4 of lukewarm water

METHODS
1. In a bowl, add in lukewarm water together with sugar and yeast. Mix well and let it rest for 20 minutes, in room temperature. (i covered the bowl with cling wrap, easy & faster)
2. In another bowl, add in flour, salt and oil. Once the yeast has expanded (like above photo), add it in. Mix well till it becomes a dough. It’s okay if it’s a little bit sticky.
3. Let it rest for 60 minutes in a room temperature.
4. On a board, gently sprinkle some flour and roll the dough. Flatten it with a roller till you get an oblong shape.
5. Cut the dough to small pieces. Dip a wood skewer into water and mark a straight line in between 2 youtiao pieces and then glue them together. They will look like the picture below.
6. Next, heat up your wok with oil in medium heat.
7. Pull the youtiao a little longer from its original shape to let the air out. Fry till golden brown.

Your youtiao will look like these. Best eat with hot soya or hot coffee or melted kaya spread. Enjoy!

Baking · Dessert · Food · homemade

2-ingredient cake

Day 12 of circuit breaker. And everyday I experience with different type of dish, but most of the time mom will be doing the cooking (since I have to work from home).

This evening I made 2-ingredient cake and since my birthday is just around the corner, why not pamper myself with some happiness (for tummy).

We only need a pack of semi-chocolate chip and 4 eggs (grade A would be better but you can use large/omega one too!)

  1. Start off with a bag of choco chip (i use the whole bag, 340g). Melt it off in microwave for 30-40 secs. Mix well and let it cool, leave aside.
  2. Crack 4 eggs and separate the yolks and white in two different bowls.
  3. For the white yolks, use hand mixer to whisk till you get that fluffy peak foam.


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  4. Add yolks, one by one and mix well with melted chocolate. Then, slowly add in the egg whites.
  5. Pour the batter in a greased pan (i used 8′ square pan).

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  6. Bake for 30 minutes, with 170 degree celsius.
  7. Let it cool for 1-2 minutes then sprinkle with either icing sugar or powdered sugar.

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I used brown sugar and blend till soft/powdery.

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This is a gluten-free dessert.